Since the beginning of Lockdown I have been exploring avenues unlike any I have previously, including creating small videos of myself unboxing things I had received and just acting a fool on camera.
The old Chloe of a year or 2 ago would never have even enjoyed having a photo taken, let alone posting videos of myself talking and joking online for people to see, share and comment on.
Weirdly however, people have let me know their true fondness towards my on screen personality and have found joy in watching me just be myself, so much so that quite a few of those same people have suggested I start a YouTube channel.
Who would have thought? It shocked me!
Anyway, instead of me jabbering on, I thought I’d share with you my latest which was posted to my IGTV channel. Let me know your thoughts and any suggestions you have on content you’d possibly like to see.
This honestly feels a little odd. It truly has been quite some time, hasn’t it?
In fact i’m almost certain it has been a year now since I was mustering the courage to write a post like this.
Like they say though, better late than never.
You know, that age old excuse we all think helps us get away with anything we find ourselves being late on.
But with everything going on around us right now, keeping us in a feeling of swimming down to new unknown depths, but with blurred vision, I needed something to keep me somewhat sane. If that’s at all possible.
It’s very easy to get lost in it all. To fall into this trap of sudden panic and allow the hectic clutter of noise sourrounding us all to take over.
Unfortunately, for a little while at least, I did.
However now, i’ve given my mind back something worth concentrating on again when I’m not having fun with my own job.
Don’t worry. This isn’t just going to be a passing moment for me. I’d been planning on making my return for a while. I had to. I needed to.
This blog and everything that initially came with it has been ingrained in the corner of memories, burning into me, pushing me to pick it back up.
Right now just seemed as good a time as any.
Saying that, I assumed it would be difficult. Jumping head first back into something I didn’t even think I would be able to do anymore. I worried that no one would even remember I was ever here.
Thankfully none of that has been the case. It really feels like it always did.
I’m back. As I should be. Yet not everything is or will be as it once was.
Things have changed. I’ve changed.
So what’s different? I know you all desperately want to know so let mejust show you before you all EXPLODE with excitement.
First I want to introduce you to the BRAND NEW logo and tagline for Life as Chloe Lauren.
Now i’m no designer, but I really am rather happy with how this turned out.
This simple but effective little sense of fun practically encapsulates what I and this blog are about.
No. Not plain.
Moving on, we have the entirely new layout of my homepage as an overall concept.
Chloe from years gone by would never have shown her face on this space, or just about anywhere for that matter.
If you were around near the time of this blog being created, and then some time following, you will most likely remember that overly timid side of me.
Now in 2020, Chloe Lauren is not one to shy away. It might look as though I love the camera a bit more than I should. If you’ve seen my Instagram (@lifeaschloelauren) you will definitely know what I mean.
Last but of course never least, my favourite part of this new chapter.
I NOW (FINALLY) OWN THE DOMAIN.
I always thought this should have been a step I took before. People even willed me to do so, but I just didn’t believe in myself the way I should have.
I’ve grown a lot if you couldn’t tell by this overwhelming child like excitement I am exuding right now.
Proud of me?
So there you have it. I have returned. Life as Chloe Lauren has been relaunched.
Last night I was going through my Twitter feed when I came across a story about a young Biritsh reality TV star who had unfortunately passed away at the age of only 26.
Although I had never been a fan of the work he had done previously with the show he found fame on, I was absolutely devastated by this news.
26 is no age to die. No matter who you are.
The more I read on, the more I felt I truly understood his story.
He had been suffering inwardly from what seems to be a very silent yet prominent killer in this day and age…Depression.
He had been given a persona from the show, something he had to take on board, live with, and act as though was who he really was on a daily basis. It wasn’t until the news of his death, that you heard about who he truly was on the inside.
Perception isn’t always truth and Reality TV isn’t the reality we are in. It’s made and altered to fit what it’s aiming to be and for the audience it wishes to keep.
And just for the record, this is not the only account of this we have seen in the news, and unfortunately it will probably not be the last either. In fact, under a year ago, there was another case with a very similar issue, and from the exact same show.
What does this say for the way we treat others? These people were treated like their characters not for the people they are outside this life.
How can this be? How can we allow this to continue to happen?
It doesn’t matter if you are in the public eye or not. Something desperately needs to change!
One major issue – these people feel as though they are silenced. They fear speaking out in case of backlash or people just not getting it.
Trust me, I have been there. Opening up was the one of the hardest things I thought I would or could ever do, to the point that the only way I found I could do so was through writing…hence this blog.
Mental Illness continues to take lives.
I’m ready for things to change. Are you?
If you are struggling or if you know someone who is, please, I ask you now, don’t hide away. Talk to someone. There are people who really can and want to help.