Don’t Fear Your Past! Look To The Future!

Memories Can't Change(1)

Hey Guys,

Memories are important, they give us a chance to look back and smile at things that have happened to us. Just something to look back on, and remember forever. However, they are also extremely powerful, and can easily take a hold of your life if you’re not careful, especially the ones that you do not wish to remember, the more hurtful and scarring ones coming to the forefront of your mind. The very ones that will drag you back if you let them.

Unfortunately, a lot of us think of ourselves as being a little bit too weak, and therefore find it difficult to let go of them, letting them fully take over. I don’t think it is weakness, not now anyway. I did at one point, for a long time, but right now I see it as an opportunity, to turn the bad into good, a negative into a positive, and become the person I want to be.

Our memories are just a reminder of what was, and not what is or will be in our futures. A time will come when the memories that once were the cause of our hurt, will be there to assist us to that better life that we oh so dream of.

If we never get hurt or make mistakes, how are we supposed to grow, and realise we need to make a change in our own lives? Simple answer, we wouldn’t.

For a long time I have let mine destroy the person I was, making me angry and striving for a way to get rid of them, but now I realise, I need them, and want them, so in a few years time I can look back and say, you did it. You made it!

These memories were just the push we needed! It seems hard, trust me, I am still dealing with my troubles, but one day we will win. After all, we are part of TeamAwesome so of course we will!

The Perfect Song To Begin Your New Outlook On Life:

Chloe Lauren x

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Ever Feel Like You Are Not Enough?

About Me(3)

Hey Guys,

I have seen a lot of people recently talk about self image and being able to love yourself, and that’s why I have decided to write about this, because I really struggle with that.

For the last few weeks, months, probably even years, I have felt as though I am not as good as anyone else in any way. People tell me I have a lot going on for myself, but for some reason I just can’t accept it as the truth. Others just tell me just to get over it, but I don’t think they get how much I am hurting inside.

It’s got to the point where I have become obsessed with making myself look as good as I can before I leave, because over the years people picked out every little flaw I had, and it made me scared of it happening all over again. So now, I do anything I can to stop it before it does happen. It wasn’t just my appearance, but the way in which I acted, and who I was. Everything I was, was wrong to them, and at any chance they had, they tried to alter that part of me.

The emotional distress ruined me!

I went from having total confidence in myself, to not being able to leave without being frightened of what others might think, or if I would see these people again. This was partly where my anxiety came from, and why I find it difficult to leave my house at all.

Over the years I became much worse, and have even reached the point where all I can say to myself is, ‘I hate myself’ or ‘why am I like this’. I have realised, although I am not with these people anymore, I am continuing what they did to me, by bringing myself down. Maybe that’s what they wanted. I don’t know!

But what I do know is, I can’t keep living this way, so I am going to do whatever I can to change my views on myself, and beat those who beat me down!

Thank you guys for all of the support you have given me, you are the ones that keep me going, along with my parents and friends, and constantly help me with your great comments!

Lonely Girl x

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